“I wanted to be happy, I just didn’t know how”.
there was an overwhelming feeling that I didn’t belong; that I wasn’t good enough. For me, those feelings can be traced back to a series of bullying incidents that began when I was nine. The bullying lasted less than a year, but its effects would stay with me for decades. I had no self-confidence, and no self-worth, and I suffered panic and anxiety attacks almost daily. The simple act of speaking up for myself became a daunting, if not impossible task. As a result, I did my best to hide from everyone and everything. At first, in any empty coat room or a quiet corner, then under an unruly mop of rock-n-roll hair, and finally, behind a caustic, self-deprecating sense of humor.
Recognizing that change…
needed to happen was an “aha moment” of sorts. As an adult, I didn’t feel a whole lot different than I had, as that scared little kid. I was constantly playing defense, my relationships felt like they were all give and no take, and my esteem was at an all-time low. I was an innate people pleaser who was operating in a consistent state of perceived failure. To top it all off, I was working a job I didn’t love, let alone like.
I wanted to be a healthier, happier person, but I had no idea what that would look like, or where those things could be found. What I did know for sure was that it wasn’t going to happen overnight, and it wasn’t going to come from some magical pill that a doctor would prescribe.
I dug in wholeheartedly…
on a journey of self-discovery, and I came to understand that love was much more than a feeling, it’s an action. I also learned that what’s truly important is that we accept ourselves for who we are, and that our worth is never dependent on the opinions of others. We all make mistakes, but those mistakes shouldn’t define us, but teach us. Working hard to be open, vulnerable, and honest about my feelings and beliefs has led me to better understand not only the “why” behind those things, but MY “why”, as well.
Today, I’m happy to say that I’ve found my passion… to be the voice for those who cannot speak for themselves, or for those who just haven’t found the volume knob, yet. By starting the conversation, I have been able to create forward movement, fueling happier and stronger relationships, the confidence to strive for more, and respect for ourselves and for others.
I now have the honor of teaching and lifting up those who are seeking peace, contentment, courage, confidence, and success. My audiences leave with new wisdom to share, steps to take, and hope in their heart for a healthier, more fulfilling life. I couldn’t possibly ask for anything more. I’m proud of the person I’ve become, and I can’t wait to speak with YOU. Let’s talk!